Today is one of Mike's best friend's birthday.

World's Strongest Man 2014 starts filming tomorrow, Saturday. Mike proposed 3 years ago on this day, too. He re-enacted our first date. It was perfect.

Our two year wedding anniversary is on Monday.

A week from today we are having our 2nd picnic at CrossFit Gamma. Mike was here for the first. He died 4 months ago on this day.

Please God, don't let me sink. Please. Because right now it's a struggle to get from one minute to the next.

That's all for today. I simply have no words to describe how scared I am.